Rant
tired of trusting and trying to mend friendships.
if you want me to trust you then tell me the truth or tell me whats going on,
if you dont tell me how do you expect me to trust you.
Ive tried but to be honest, brutally honest, which i don’t even understand why i have to be in this situation because its common sense, but if im trying and you still dont see then im just going to draw back and the trust from present drops to not. I dont get it, you say this and that but you dont go according to it. As much of a supposedly strong person i appear to be, yes i am human, yes i bleed, yes i get affected, yes i have emotions, yes i do feel hurt from time to time. Perhaps im not your closest no longer then stop flashing the label around because its not helping me. I buy into the belief i try and i go forward and then these things happen so i step back. I was just about to be closer and bam. Perhaps im just being very very very very very sensitive and paranoid but its things that happen that cause me to be sensitive and paranoid. Perhaps i am just assuming too much and perhaps not everything i think is true. But if that truly were the case then so be it, i am wrong. So be it, i will apologise. But the thing is, when do you ever talk to me. Do you bother? Honestly, do you? I don’t know how else to progress in this matter, or friendship. I am just simply tired and irritated that all i get is shit to just fu yan the heck out of me. I dont need that. If that were it then what does our friendship stand for. For fun? Cos it sure as hell ain’t anything close. Everything is just crashing and all i really need are people that would be honest and truthful. Sure stab me all you want but hell, do it from the front. Do it where i can see ya. If being honest brings that much fear for you then, screw it.
